Hi..

It's been long time im not writing anything here. I actually not very busy..there was some problem...well of course..that's life, There was moments like i got slapped on my face, i trusted sooo many things before and then when I got the real problem it seems like all my believes was dissapear like dusts.

I dont mean to share my problem here but I mean to share about some lessons. 

I was always having a lots of friends, men and women. They always good to me and I also good to them. Untill there was some problems happened.. I could see some people was really nice to me and then that problem continuosly. Some of my friends gave me a lot of advices.. it was already very hard on me and it became more harder with their advices. They identified my problems just like their problem and how they should face it with their own character. I am not them and I have my own character, my own way to face everything. I cant be like them and they can not be me. I have my own patience to face everything, while all I could see that people guessed i am too silly to make everything happened. And finally I was tired and feel it is done, I gave up with everything and went away from people. 

Right now I have my own life, I dont care with what people think about me. Actually its not easy..having adaptation without friends -while you used to life with a lot friends before- was hard, I can feel it is very hard untill now. Even I have my man, he also my best friend, only a best friend I have right now. It is hard for both of us because we are man and woman that having different brain's composition, different hormones and of course different character. But we strugling with everything around us. 

One of reason why I finally stop talking with friends because I dont want they judge my man.. our story is different than people. it gives chance for people to think, guess and analyze what kind of relationship we have right now. I dont fault them but I also dont have a lot energy to explain and always communicate with them about what happened to us. Although it is really hard for me to keep it everything with my self, I trying to survive. Moreover my man is very quiet person and having opposite character with me, but we trying to understand each other. It gives us priceles lessons day by day. I learn a lot from him because he used to not have a lot friends and never share about his private life with friends. It was weird for me at the first time, but he completes me. He listening me more than a friend can be. Its always different when we sharing with woman and with man. Woman will always gives feedback from what we shared, sometimes the feedback can be an advices, opinion and sometimes could be a smooth judge. While with man, they just listening and thats all (when I need more than that he used to say "Don't worry I'm with you"), For me, it is more than I need when we cant runaway from dailly problem. I still have normal life. Sometimes im bad mood, other day I can be too excited but I controll it by keeping it only for my self.

I learning as extrovert person, mostly I have extreem switching moods. I could be very very sad and then one hour later I could forget it and very happy. I also very easy to memorize every single things that happened everyday. But now I trying to not to show to people like I used to be. My man as introvert person trying to balance me. So I try to be carefull when meet new people or when I talking with people around me. It is not easy.. I repeat.. It is NOT easy. But I had some experiences from my past that this extrovert character was gave me bad impacts.. So I need to change my self, of course it is impossible to change your own character.. all we can do just handle it so it wont harm your self.

I think I already shared too much..

I hope next post will not talking about my self

Cheers ^^

My man, i make it blur. I dont like when people seeing him even just a picture. Extrovert person usually a very jealously person.

AND THE HARD BUTTON IS ON

Have you ever had problem in your life? the hardest one that make you unafraid to anything happends after all. the hardest one that activate a button in your heart, whenever you smell something or you see something, it will just make your heart beat faster and your emotion explode. Have you ever?

Potatoehoney

When i writing this, my fone is very bussy with a lot beeps, i was download "skout", a random chat application. For what? just seeing am I still have excitement for this silly things. Well it is very lazy to reply some chatts that asking about my name, age, address etc etc. Of course I do not reply in serious way (sometimes I said I am 17 yo :D).

As the topic about hard button, I had a friend, actually he was my client when i had a job around 7 years ago. He told me about theory of hard button : Everyone will have problems in their life, one the biggest problem will give them hard button, and very precious lesson that will be remembered whole of our life. Thats problem will make someone to not afraid to anything happends in the future. The problem that will changed someone's life and changes someone's view about a life. Sound hard? I have an example, around 2 years ago I watched a movie name "LIFE of PI", it is story about a young man who living in wealth and suddenly lost in the sea with a wild tiger, and he has to survive, and of course it is not easy to survive  with wild tiger and no one help him. This experience of journey that give him biggest problem in his life that finally brings Piscine (Pi) to be different character in the future. And this is what I am talking bout, a problem that finally changed someone's life, and character. The problem will also give them lesson how to face world after all. and sometime it will give you a very weird emotion when you see somethings related that. 

You need to face "tiger' to be stronger

Why my friend called this as HARD BUTTON? well he said that this button will activate another buttons in your heart to fight more and to face problems with more mature. At least you will always say, it is nothing compare with what i have been through.

Talking about the hard button, well I have to say that I got that. It was soo unexpected, in 2008 untill 2009 was a whole year full of problems, I even guessed that i will never get out from that year. And yes that was totally changed me, not only the way I see anything but also it left a big hole in me that give me some trauma, but I will not talk about that hole. That problem gives me a lot lesson and experience to handle everything. Not only about my view but also the way I talk etc.

So did you got your 'hard button' ?

I am reading.. so I runaway from my own life

My books are my only treasure ..

Been long time I did not post anything in this blog. I feel stuck, busy with my very own mind. Right now I want to write out of foods things.

I just made an account in Goodreads, you know it right? I just finished a book and i want to have histories of what books I read. 

I really like to read, since I was kid. My parents are kind of parents who dont have really like or want to read, except newspaper. I spent my childhood by collecting money from grandmas and buying the BOBO or DONALD DUCK magazine. For my parents that kind of magazine only allowed to read in holiday season. Out of holiday I would only read it when my parents didnt see me. In my school I often spent time in the small library in my school. I read all the books there, most books were fantasy and kid fiction. I remember some books that stuck in my brain untill now. I used to brought book to home and lied to my mom that it was homework from my teacher. 

When I got job and have my own money, i bought the books as often as I could. I feel I cant to not read anything. even the most books that I have are fictions, but I was also like to read motivation books, history, spiritual, biography etc. I almost resigned from this hobby when I have internet in my phone. Yeah it giving addiction, for around 3 years I forgot how peacefull to read a book. But these few months I started to read again. 

Photo taken from my instagram @Potatoehoney

My favorite genre of book are crime and psychological. It gives me beats when I'm reading it, especially crime story I used to keep guessing nd investigating even in the end story it usually giving me the wrong answer. Crime story is unpredictable, it sometimes give you a running sensation. You have to run to find the answer before the murder kill another victim... something like that.

I think in the next post I will try to write my review for some of my fave books. I wish I will have time and mood to write more.


Love
xoxo

TABULA RASA : A STORY FROM THE KITCHEN

I have to frankly say that the reason I agree to watch this movie is a name, Vino G Bastian. And for this I have to feel dissapointed bcoz he is not in the cast. Vino sitting as an assosiate producer in Tabula Rasa, and well yeah i have to admit that he should proud of this movie. Why? I will let you know why.

Tabula Rasa is a first Indonesian movie that I watched in cinema after more than 2 years, last time I went to cinema for film Catatan Harian si Boy, and yes I always choose good quality movie to watch in cinema. And also for Tabula Rasa I got free ticket from twitter, so that's why I went :D

This movie begins with the story about Hans, a young man from Serui, Papua. He feels desperately give up because he has to forget his goal to be professional footballer due to legs injury. In the way to trying to end his life, Hans met 'Mak. owner of a Minangnese restaurant "Takana Juo", Mak guesses that Hans was trying to commit suicide, so she asked Natsir (her helper in her restaurant ) to bring Hans to her house. The twist started when Mak give Hans foods from her restaurant, from here, Hans who already feel hopeless suddenly re-alive again after tasting her food, seems like the taste of this food giving him a new hope, he finished that foods and went to Mak's kitchen to clean the dishes, in the kitchen Han's eyes blinked to see the mess in her kitchen, herbs, spices, and (maybe ) the smeel too. And after that story walk soo continuosly and problem arise when Mak's cook jeolous to Hans because of him, they should share the money while their restaurant not have good sales. I will not tell more stories because it would bring spoiller, but watching the whole stories seems like watching the common life in Indonesia, they dont make any drama so they bring us to their story as if we are in that story itself.

Beside the story itself that very intense even in slow plot, I have to say that this movie bring me back to my childhood when I spent my time in my grandma's kitchen to watching her cooking, you will not find gas stove or clean kitchen, because they have a very traditional kitchen with stone stove and woodens, but you know what,  I feel very amazaed what Mak's said about her stove : This stove that make the foods taste good, if we have to change with modern stove it will change the taste. Same words my Grandma told me 15 years ago!


I think Dewi Irawan having very great acting in this movie, her expresions are just perfectly superb! I saw her acting in another movie called "Sang Penari" which also brought her trophy for best supporting role, and yes she seems specialist for strong character. Another role that amazed me is Hans, that papua guy, and yes the actor also from Papua. and I was surprised to know that this is his debut movie. He played really well and seems like he born to act. 

For me, Tabula Rasa is a culinary amazing movie, even their plot very simple and a bit slow, but I can see that every scene was very touchy. And what I amazes me in this movie is their characters, every role is equally important portion in whole movie even if they are just 4 people. But that surprisingly, with only 4 roles, this movie is sooo alive, they build conflict to each other in natural way. there is nothing imposed and dramatic, every confict is build in reasonable way. Each role has same important portion and the conflicts that made each other are very reasonable and it could happend to anyone.

And yes, Vino choose this movie as his first debut on 'behind the scene' is never goes wrong, and i think this movie was not really intended to make profits. They probably focused more on the movies appearance in the festival. I will be happy to pay for cinema because it is quite enjoyable, and let me tell you if you plan to watch this movie in cinema, just make sure to eat before attending!

Because I am a woman and he is a man

"In a relationship, accepting weirdness of eachother is as much important as knowing the love itself" -potatoehoney-

I have to say that I am so lucky to have a very good man who has been my soulmate for more than 5 years. We met in a very uncommon situation, being a good friend and then having silly relationship in the first time. He was unexpectable man for me, I meant I am a movie lover who consider thats my type should be like actor in romantic movie (ahahahah) and what I got is, well, a creepy man. 

Before I have relationship with him I read this book, it is like a guide for relationship between woman and man.

I learn a lot from this book and i guess that I will ready for having mature and stable relationship with a man. I know how to handle my emotions and how to understand a man. And yes then I met him. First and second years was very beautifull, we laugh, share and had very great time. Sometimes there was emotions  too but we managed it because we both falling love with each other. But every relationship have up and down, and it is also happened to us. Most time all the theories that I knew from this book are just gone. And I am feeling that I am just a new girl who just got first love, yeah it happends!

It is very hard to deal with my self, not because I dont understand my man, but the problem is to deal with my self, with my heart, my hormons and my emotions relate with the little problems that often happends in our relationship's life. 

For example : The last sunday my "half" had deadline for his work, He already explained to me that he will be very busy with his projects and I said that I understand this. But in the weekend that we usually spending time together, I can't controll my emotion to miss him and feel lonely because he is not with me. No matter how hard I try to understand but I just couldn't stop my brain to sensitive about his busy, to miss him too much. And this lead us to complain each other, he complain me because I can't understand him and I complain him because he doesn't understand that I miss him.

That is what I meant that no matter we understand the theory, finally practice it is just separate thing with knowing the theory ^^

Talking about my man, he was my best friend before started to falling love with me. I am a type of girl who reads zodiac to learn about characteristic. My man is a capricorn, and according to zodiac capricorn are very serious and stable persons.

In another problem, our fight should start with some silly things that it is very funny if later we realized it supposed to not happend if we both face it with cool head.

And actually I have to say that it seems impossible to unite us with a lots of differences, but we choose to keep love each other and make this relationship stronger than everyone could thought.

I can be too sensitive and bombard him with a lot of love words that annoyed him, and he can makes me mad because of his cold and quiet behaviour, but in the end we will have to say that we love each other, and that all.

SUNDAY TRAGEDY

I have bad mood, so I cook.. then I feel better -Potatoehoney-

Today I have bad luck. I will tell bit details. I have online shop producing shawls and accessories, I made that shawls and I also have some supliers who give details pattern and material. 3 days ago there was my customer (this is her 3rd order) that requested me for square shawls, I only made square shawls by request and she requested 12 shawls, as I informed that I will try to searched the patterns that she wanted but I cant guarantee that we still have that patterns.

So I went to my suplier and order that patterns, there was 3 patterns that sold out and I bought some other pattern to complete it. Then I took photo of that shawls and sent her. I told her that 3 patterns was sold out so I give another pattern with similar colors and size. She keep asking me about the sold out patterns and even asked another new patterns, I reminded her about the shawls that she requested and finally after asking and chats alot, she said she cancel it. Well everyone, can you feel wht I am feeling. Yeah maybe I make wrong desicion about request pattern that I should ask my customer to pay down payment for make them consistent. But it is ok, I did not shout her but YES I blacklisted her and say in polite way to not buy to me again. And after I feel bad for my lost buying square shawl that quite hard to sell, I really feel bad. Then I decide to cook.

People say that you need good mood to cooking, but I think that quote is not for me. Here I present my "bad mood changed into good foods "

Good Soup

Good Soup 

Ingredients :

• 1 tablespoon margarine
• 3 Shallots, thickly sliced
•  Half onion, thickly sliced
• 1 Chily, sliced (do not hesitate to add more chillies if you like)
• 6 chicories leaves, sliced
• 50 grams black mushrooms 
• 50 grams Cloud ear mushrooms
• 1 cups water
• 1 Lemongrass
• 1  lime, juiced
• 5 cm gingger, peeled and pressed
• 1 Tomato
• Salt
• Coriander leaves for garnish

Directions:

1. Put margarine in a pan in medium heat, add onion stir-fry untill smell good, add shallots and chilly and stir fry for one minute. Then add water untill boilled
2. Add mushrooms, lemon grass,gingger, lime juice, and salt then cook untill mushrooms cooked. add chicory leaves and tomato. Cook untill chicories cooked. Garnish with coriander leaves.
3. Good soup  is ready to serve.

Simple Grilled Shrimp

Simple Grilled Shrimp

Ingredients :

• 5 Shrimps, peeled and deveined
• Lime, juiced
• Salt
• Coriander powder
• Pepper
• Margarine just to make the pan wet

Directions :

1. Soak the shrimps into lime juiced, add salt, coriander powder, and pepper for around 10 minutes
2. Grill the shrimps into pan until it changed into pink, make sure for using small heat
3. Simple grilled shrimp is ready

Ok everyone, Have a lovely sunday....

HEALTHY TOM YAM

Dear Tuesday..

Nowadays we have dry season in Indonesia.  Even today Jakarta is very hot, but I will post about recipe that will make you feel warm, hehe nevertheless it will make you feel relax and happy. I changed the original tom yam recipe because I couldn't find some ingredients. But I think my recipe is also as good as the original. Ok ladies here I present to you TOM YAM for beginners ^^

Ingredients :

• 10 medium shrimps – peeled and keep the skin and head in separate bowl
• 5 Shallots, thickly sliced
• 5 Garlics, thickly sliced
• 4 Chilies, sliced
• 50 grams Enoki mushrooms 
• 50 grams Cloud ear mushrooms
• 4 cups water
• 2 Lemongrass
• 1  lime, juiced
• 5 cm gingger, peeled and pressed
• 2 slices galangal
• 1 1/2 tablespoons fish sauce
• 1 Tomato
• Salt

Directions:

1. To make stock: Add the shrimp heads and shells in water and cook for 20 minutes. Turn off the heat. Soak the heads and shells for further 20 minutes before discarding.
2. Trim lemongrass and cut into matchstick size pieces.
3. Add stock, lemon grass,gingger, galangal, chillies, fish sauce, lime juice, salt, and chili paste to a pot and bring to a boil. After boiling for 5 minutes, add shrimps and both mushrooms. Cook for further 10 minutes. Garnish with coriander leaves.
4. Tom yam is ready to serve.

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